I’m helpless I had no choice. Living like this I’m sick of living like this. I today am happy and despite feeling this way I also feel remorseful. It was my poverty but not my will consent.
With this I wasted my day contemplating, from dawn to dust. Should I have not sold it to him? As a matter of fact I hesitated with my heart saying no but my head saying yes. I should do the right thing, I should turn myself in! But is this really what I desire? To be most definitely executed straight away. Or even to spend the rest of my life in a cell. Just having the thought makes me feel as if I should not turn myself in. After all I only sold it; whatever he did with it after has nothing to do with me. It does not concern me. The actions he took, I am sure of it, he would have known the consequences. I shall not, I will not turn myself in, and I do not care. Provided I would reasonably be remorseful for the rest of my life. I admit it I fear the consequences of my actions. Where am I to head to the left where nothing is right or to the right where nothing is left? This is the only choice I have left to not do anything, be quiet and keep this to myself. If I am found out towards this wrong doing or blamed upon I will then turn myself in as there is no escape