She was sweating. It was torment for her to go back in her mind and replay that day, but she could not stop herself from doing so. Betraying Winston seemed like the worst thing she could do, the one thing she would never do, but there was another force that was greater than that of Winston, her father. She had never admitted it, never even thought to herself of what had happened to her, until the day of Room 101. It was then that she was able to accept that she was raped, by her own father. Her father was alive in a time before The Revolution, just like Winston. He had not been shaped by the new rules and standards of living that The Party demanded. He still had a strong sexual desire inside of him, just like he had had all of his life. He did not believe in family though, he only believed in sex and survival and he felt you could not have one without the other. He began being attracted to his daughter when she was 7 years old. At 10, he went too far with her. From that day on, Julia has been scarred. The sickliness mixed with pleasure that she felt while being with her dad is a feeling she will never be able to forget. It caused her to love sex so much, just like her