Andy became distant and his break downs were uncontrollable. For example, Andy and his girlfriend, Keisha were walking through the mall around Christmas time. He refused to talk to anyone after seeing a Santa Claus display. He told Keisha that it reminded him of Rob.Andy could be fine one minute and uncontrollable then next.There was also a time when Andy was talking to his basketball coach after a game about how Rob´s parents still showed up to their games. Andy said ¨They sat there,Rob´s mom holding back tears, and my folks didn't even bother to show up. I should be the one dead, not Rob¨. Andy faced a constant battle throughout the book of feeling like he should be the one who was dead and not