With my first girlfriend, it was the perfect relationship. We never fought, we always were happy and we were completely content. It was somewhat of a typical relationship. It lasted from the beginning of middle school to the end of high school. Everything was 100% fine, UNTIL the end of high school. I was never a typical person. I was always nervous, anxious, sad or paranoid. I knew my girlfriend loved me, but for some reason there was always a feeling of “what is she doing when I’m not with her?” or “I don’t deserve her”.
With me being paranoid about her non-existent actions, it made her unsure about me as a person. I was always questioning her actions, in her business and whatnot. Besides me being a paranoid, deluded, anxious mess, we were good together. We pushed each other to be better as people. We supported each other like a couple should. On her side, she gave 100%. On my side, I have 99.9%. I …show more content…
My questions and paranoia had finally reached a boiling point. She was fed-up with my actions and realized that to better her and myself that she had to leave me. Honestly, I’ve never felt pain like that before. That hurt me more than anything else in life. At first I was pissed and confused. I tried everything to get her back. I resented her for the longest time until I finally realized that it was my fault. It sounds like I came to my senses quickly, but overall it took over 2 years to finally get past it. I realized that she was right and we were better off, at that point, not being