I collapsed in a glistening river, glowing white with vibrant life, falling on my rigid ribs, half of my mouth submerged like a fish half in half out of water. A villager, Suta, found me and saved me; my anatomy clearly visible, my bones, veins, and ligaments bulging against my skin, she gave me food believing I was a spirit that had answered her prayers. I crawled over to a pipal tree and collapsed vowing jhana meditation until I achieved enlightenment as my companions abandoned me believing my volition was