People are a lot like cilantro. Some might find you to be a welcome additive in their life, while others might think you taste like soap and would rather you stay away. Some might even be able to stomach you in certain situations but avoid you in others.
I’m in this weird stage in my life right now. I moved to a new city and I'm still trying to figure out where I stand in the world. …show more content…
If there's one thing in this world that I'm not great at it's making and keeping close friends. I've always struggled with letting people get close and I tend to push them away without realizing it. The biggest and hardest revelation that I've made is that I'm the maker of my own bed.
It's normal to crave a community and desire to feel like you belong somewhere and to someone(s). One of the components that drew me to Los Angeles was the belief that I'd have an easier time making friends. Most people in LA are known to be fairly flaky and fake, and I agree that this is a bizarre theory. However, so far my theory has proven true.
Being in LA has allowed me to begin figuring out who I am without the added history and past perceptions of who I once was in Rochester.
All I've ever wanted was to feel like I belong and to be part of a friend group. I have friends, I have some close friends and I love them, but I've never really had a group of people who I can call my best friends. I've never felt like I belonged anywhere and it's annoyed me for all of my adult life. When I tell people about my dilemma it's often followed by the words, "That's rare Kelsey." and "Most people never find a group of best friends, this isn't a TV show." These "facts" in my opinion are a cop-out for getting close to people. I think it IS possible to have a community and friends who you mutually care for and