He could have remained much longer with Kamaswami, made and squandered money, fed his body and neglected his soul; he could have dwelt for a long time yet in that soft, well-upholstered hell, if this had not happened, this moment of complete hopelessness and despair, this extreme nausea which he had bent over the flowing water, ready to commit suicide.β βI often found myself regretting my own existence, and wishing myself dead; and but for the hope of being free, I have no doubt but that I should have killed myself, or done something for which I should have been killed.β They relate to each other as both Siddharta and Frederick Douglass encounter a group or a thing that makes them want to leave the world. These direct quotations are shocking as you'd assume that both Siddhartha and Douglass would be happy and satisfied with what they've encountered, you would think that gaining knowledge about slavery and becoming wealthy is a good thing but apparently it