Marci set the bottle down and went over the speech again. This whole thing is pointless, doesn’t change anything. She knew that she couldn’t say anything to really make a difference, and that the damage was deep. Her black dress was the saddest one she could find, and it still didn’t match the somber mood of this day. Funerals are always sad, but some are bittersweet and have a great deal of hope surrounding them. Not this one, this was a black day that all light remained absent from, it was shamed. Marci cleared her throat and tried her best to read this speech. “Thank you all for letting me speak. I just want to say, I truly loved..” is all she could spill out of her mouth before the mild trickle of tears onto her cheek turned into a full scale downpour and she crumbled in a…show more content… “Mikey, I don’t know why I’m here. It seemed like yesterday it was your 7th birthday and you kept begging me to take you horseback riding. You asked me every single day and I finally surprised you with that trip. We went to Mr. Inez’s stable out by Aunt Carol’s old house in the country, and you were so excited. You’re face lit up like a Christmas tree and you gave me that big hug. You said “I love you so much mom” Marci smiled through the tears for just a slight moment before reality slapped her back across her tear stained cheeks. “What happened to you Mikey? Where is the little boy that used to love baseball, would catch fireflies and liked to help me cook dinner? Where is the young man that loved his mother, grew up and was a star student athlete in high school? Where is the young man who strived for greatness in college, rose above a tough addiction and met the love his life. Where is the young man who was there for his girlfriend when her father died, when she needed you more than anyone else? Where is the son who comforted me when your father passed, leaving me after 44 years of
