tbh rhi, I love you more then anything else , nothing else really matters when I'm talking to you. but you don't feel the same so I keep asking my self why try? cause sometimes I see these little things in the way you text and it makes me believe you're actually starting to come my way, but maybe I'm tripping, maybe my mind making these things up, I mean I remember when you said you would never send me nudes, now after you and cris break up? also that you will never fuck me, and now maybe after you and cris break up? idk rhi maybe you don't even notice you do this, but. I don't want you to stop, like when you send me songs that you want me to listen to I think you're referring to me in those lyrics that I heard, but then I think, why would…show more content… you feel me up with so much hope it's nuts, but rhi you're my one of my best friendsand I hold you more dearest then anything else, tbh I don't feel cris treats you right but I don't see what's behind closed doors, so all I know he could treat you like a fucking queen, maybe I'm just jealous and I feel I can treat you better, maybe I just crave you so much I will dis another person that I really know nothing about, maybe all these things I said are ture maybe even some are made up things in my head, maybe that's how fucked up I am, I make it seem that you want me, when all in reality, I'm not what I want to be, I'm just the opposite, maybe I'm making this up so I don't ever thing you will leave , to actually make up someone's love for you bc you're scared they will leave , how fucking low is that? fuck man I'm sorry…show more content… all these songs you made me look up was that all for nithing? If I send this as the tbh all you're going to say is "sorry" and really wtf does that do? it hurts more you saying sorry then actually rejecting that you're falling for me. fuck man I just wanna know the truth but then again I don't cause what if it's not what I wanna hear and I go nuts? tbh I have a lot of control just the drugs are saying must of the shit for me, I just wanna try use but then I'm scared, I'm scared that I won't be enough, I mean cris does have a bit over me, I mean I gave my car away, so he has that over me, my name comes with a lot of pain behind it and sorrow,things haveI have had to indore for years, I'm sorry I'm saying all if this but I'm probably gonna send it all maybe not, but I just want answers but I feel I would get the same answers over and over but with different results, like dating you after cris is still a no, but it's just a different format of no a nicer way or maybe even transforming into a maybe, and all this work I done put in long ago with this work I just
