Just the thought of this puts charlie into depression. He writes in his journal that “I’ve touchy and Irritable. I feel the darkness closing in. It’s hard to throw off thoughts of suicide(…) Some of the things I’ve learned. Oh, God, please don’t take it all away,”(Keyes 23). The pain Charlie suffers is clear as day, and very upsetting. He is in misery, desolation, and has suicidal thoughts. The cause of this is his loss of intelligence. Imagine working hard to earn a million dollar salary, then having it all taken away until you land in a third world country. What Charlie is experiencing is very possibly worse. The saddest thing about this story is that God does take it all away. He retains no knowledge about the operation and what he learned. He doesn’t even remember why he lost his intelligence. For all of Charlie's woe, he got absolutely nothing in return, nothing to validate his despondency. But some