Once I went to college, it was a different environment. I became more self-conscious with my body image. I felt nervous and anxious to step into this difference. With those anxieties, I was obsessed by the need of being skinny, especially when beautiful skinny girls surrounded me. Despite how much weight I lost since high school, I felt that it was not enough. I felt inferior to others and wanted to be even skinnier in order to fit in. Due to my trauma back in the sixth grade, I was afraid of other’s judgments so I kept those goals to myself. I was paranoid about people talking behind my back and laughing about my weight.
I began dieting again once college stated and tried to make new friends. I was never able to make close friends since I was always afraid of