Sometimes he thought about prayer for everyone he knew. Sometimes he listened to the quiet sounds of silkworm eating. Sometimes, he imagines himself going trout-fishing and revisiting all the streams. The one thing that Nick cannot do at night is sleep. Unable to sleep, Nick is alone, with his mind, and with that isolation, Nick realizes that he cannot be the man that signed up to go to war. Nick knows that the war changed him. When he signed up, he did not expect to see the horrors that he did. When his friend, John, suggested that he get married, Nick only considers it for a minute before giving it