Any dose of satisfaction was to be met with shame. Hester feels society wants to restrain any individuality she may obtain. "No man, for any considerable period, can wear one face to himself, and another to the multitude, without finally getting bewildered as to which may be the true." (Hawthorne 191) After wearing the scarlet letter for so many years Hester's self-conception alters. The letter is not a cover for her identity, it’s actually her identity now. This is why Hester comes back from living in England with Pearl and continues to wear the letter. This means she preserved it all this time, and she can only view herself in that situation as long as she is in America. Hester feels if she ends wearing the letter it will back up the impact it has in deciding in who she is. It will alone grant that society has jurisdiction over her life. The letter would prove to have successfully limiting her. Hester accepts to continue to wear the letter because she is driven to revamp its meaning through her actions and her own viewpoint- she wants to be the one who controls it message. And that means her past