What i didn’t understand was that she didn’t reject it either. In the book Esther was asked to get her picture taken for the ladies day “ Summer Splash “ and she had hid in the bathroom because she felt like crying and didn’t want to be seen. She thought her modeling job was unsatisfying , but she didn’t say “ no ” , either. She later on gets caught up and becomes suicidal ( like Plath ) because she can’t find a stable place for herself. Her vainness had trapped her, like Plath. She wanted success and happiness so bad they both felt like it would never come. Unable to change the past but had no true intention in the future. Esther is a person who is lost, directionless, dark, and sad but wants to come off as happy… Sylvia Plath was the exact same way. Life , then seemed to be the only problem , suicide the only solution. Yes , Esther survived her first suicide attempt as did Plath , but it only left them more lost and unable to decide at the end of the