He compares spending his time with his young son and elder children: "As I nurtured him, he nurtured me. It was a peaceful renewing zone to be with Jonathan. . . I called them [elder four children], and we talked, but it was often awkward and painful despite their efforts and my attempt to keep things as positive as possible" (203). Gill regrets not being there for his elder children as they were growing up- he was always working and did not even seem to notice that they had grown. So as retribution he decided that he would be with Jonathan and use the second chance to become a better father toward all his children. In this case, his elder four children was a symbol of Gill's regrets while Jonathan represented his future hopes and