When I was a young girl (I don't know what age it started) all the way till I was 12 years old, one of my cousins had molested and raped me. Then, on top of that when I turned 12, my "best friend" had told the whole school about the situation with my cousin. I was humiliated in front of the whole school. Everyone knew me then, so everyone knew. From that point on, I was in detriment. I felt that I was alone and nobody was there for me, so therefore I didn't tell or do anything to anybody. I needed someone there for me, to bolster me up; for me to lean …show more content…
I was in a crevice between the past and present for a long time. I learned that it isn't good to hold grudges on people because that is holding me back, not them. It's not healthy or attractive either. I don't want to feel I'm in incognito mode anymore when I have a whole house full of people who love and care about me. I feel like, even now, everyone can see all my blemishes, like there out in the open for everyone to see. Last but not least, I want to be able to trust people again. I don't like the fact that I feel like I can't trust people I love and care about, because I don't want to be hurt again. I don't want to preclude myself from the world