His existence on earth was temporary to him but his main concern was whether or not he would be able to make his parents proud while doing he loathed or “disappoint” them by pursuing an opposite career. Ultimately, love is part of the reason why he fell into that depression but it is also something that brought him out. He found someone beautiful that he could fall in love with while being able to better himself as an individual. Once he started to realize the power love had over him, he was able to ignore all of feelings and thoughts. He knew that it would bring him some form of suffering but it was worth the pleasure it would bring to his