Was marriage, kids, cooking, shopping at the same stores for her children that she once did with her mother, cleaning, holidays, bar mitzvah or a bris, with the occasional funeral or wedding, all that life had to offer? For Jackie, her mind often wondered, silently of course, for even her closest friends were groomed exactly like she was and practically lived the same life just a brownstone or two down the block drinking the same wine from Nettie and Joseph Warbug on 3rd St and Avenue