The main reason was if you have ever cared for someone or been in a situation where you don’t know what to do or just feel helpless it is incredibly frustrating. My first event on seeing actual trauma shocked me. Everyone goes through training on how to handle yourself but nothing really prepares you that first time. It happened to me while I was training in Los Angeles. It may sound minor but I was asked to give 1 mg of epinephrine during a code, however the doctor who asked me didn’t know I was a trainee and not a RN and I ended up freezing. I knew what epinephrine did but I wasn’t exactly confident behind the science and it wasn’t in my scope of practice to push meds. I wanted to help but I couldn’t. I didn’t want this scenario to happen again so once I got back to my duty station. I signed up for summer courses at the local