I tried to lift him and carry him to our trenches, I couldn’t. I tried everything to move him somewhere, somewhere away from the pelting of bullets and explosions of bombs. But this was war, there was no such place. I risked my life to save his, but it was no good. He couldn’t stand so I sat with him, holding him. I could have been shot while I was there, in the middle of No Man’s Land, holding Robert. I saw the life leave his eyes. I felt him take his last breath. I held my best friend as he died in my arms. I was distraught, it was a nightmare. I couldn’t move, my best friend was dead in my arms. Bombs exploded around me, my fellow soldiers were yelling at me to get up. I couldn’t, I just could not move. But suddenly you and Joseph flashed before my eyes like a slideshow moving from photo to photo. You with your beautiful long blond hair, fair blue eyes, and pregnant stomach. Joseph, with his cute little dimples, and huge bright smile. And then I thought of Sweet Pea, and suddenly I realized that I could not die, I would not die.