As we both sat beside each other next to the bridge, watching the cars drive through under the bridge every six to eight seconds with a settle swoosh sound, I couldn’t help but think how weird this all is. We began the day off just wandering around on the rusty, ran down train tracks, yet here i am just thinking about my past as if i were about two decades older than i am right now. I looked up into the dark sky, then looked back down to pull out my phone. It was about ten at night. I stood up and started walking on the train tracks again, laughing and trying to balance on the rails as if absolutely none of those thoughts had occurred.
It’s funny how people do that. Casually brushing away any remaining feelings from the last hundreds of depressing thoughts. I guess it has something to do with the right time and…show more content… For those who don’t know what Adderall is, it’s a pill for people with ADHD to focus more easily. It also makes you lose a ton of weight, and can be very easily abused. The pill is the reason i was so skinny when i got to Burdick, but nobody knew that. I was bullied for it often. In and out of school. That really lowered my confidence. Right now, that doesn’t affect me at all because i have gained weight and no one talks bad about me in front of me. But that basically had a domino effect on me.
About four years ago, my mom and dad split. I took it really hard, they are my parents after all. I started becoming more distant and sad all of the time, because something that serious happening to a nine year old is a lot. Dealing with my mom and dad both finding new lovers was even harder for me. My dad found someone first, her name is Angela. She’s always been very nice, and always accepting of me even when i went through the “more than two genders” or “it’s not a phase” phase. And that means a lot to me, I didn’t like her at first but now i really like and appreciate
