My begging wouldn’t have stopped him. I couldn’t have stopped him. I didn’t stop him. As soon as I regained consciousness and could move again, I threw on my clothes and ran out of his house. I went straight for the shower when I got home, Despite the fact that I was pouring endless amounts of shampoo on my hair and frantically scrubbing my body down, it didn’t feel like enough shampoo or body wash was being applied, I wasn’t scrubbing hard enough; I felt dirty. Overcome by fear and shock, I could not comprehend what had just happened and why I was feeling the way I