I am depressed now because i am holding all my feelings and they're turning to anger now and it's like i am not myself without him. He was my best friend. He was the only one that understand me. He new something was wrong when my mom didn’t. I pushed my family away i pushed everyone away because my family act like everything was ok when it wasn’t and it never will be. I miss him every day of my life every minute i want to cry and the song that they plade at the funeral all it does is come on the radio and it kills me but i can't cry because there are little kids in the car. I keep it in and then i let it out at home. I was ready to give up but my granny needed me and so i have to be strong and i don't think i can be anymore when he left so did my best friend and now i feel like i will never see him again. He got me out of a lot of trouble he understand that i would put people above me he was there when i was born he was the first person to hold me besides my mom and dad he was my best friend and i never thought i would lose him i really thought he would live forever or at least until i died i never thought that my life would suck so bad and now it is a mess. I really just want to give