I tried to find how I was actually feeling. My mom went on and on about how she did it special for me because she thought it would be funny. I started getting angry sad, so angry that all you want to do is cry. And then my mom asked me “ha isn't it funny, I pulled a funny.” I had rage building up in me and my insurcerities of my mental disorder waving over me. So I retaliated with a soft spoken stab at my mom and I said “yeah, it’s hilarious making fun of someone’s mental disorder.” She stop laughing and got quite, she broke the silence a couple minutes later saying “that’s not what I was doing, that’s not what I was doing at all.” In the moment I realized that my mom didn't take my mental disorder seriously which hurt, more than the so called joke. But then I thought about it, in our society we use the phrase anxiety like it is going out of style. It has become a common phrase used but everyone whether they have it or not. And then it made me sad, that if my own mother didn't take my anxiety seriously did anyone else. Was I just seen as another 20 something that uses this phrase to express things that aren't even close to the mental