I hated leaving Jacob alone for any period of time because I had this irrational fear that he’d have another seizure in the time that we’d be gone. I also became very skittish, because the slightest thump or knock made me immediately go check to see if it was Jacob and if he was okay. This became irritating for all of us as Jacob was an extremely clumsy person and this would happen multiple times a day. The majority of the paranoia came from all the “what ifs” that constantly ran through my mind and caused a near permanent feeling that something terrible was just about to