Personal Narrative: My Struggle With Anxiety

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My every day, ordinary struggle
Have you ever had times where you are so nervous about something that you talk yourself out of doing it? I have, it has ranged from not giving a speech in a class to going out with my friends on the weekends. Some people call this simply being nervous, but for me it is anxiety. Anxiety is a mental disorder that affects different people in different ways. For me it is characterized by excessively worrying about some of the smallest things, shakiness, racing heart, and sometimes sweating and stuttering. There are some people that go to professionals and get this disorder diagnosed, eventually being put on medication. For me that is not an option because my family does not consider it an actual disorder. To them and many others it is just me being nervous and introverted. Throughout my life I have had to struggle with having anxiety,
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I have a group of four people I consider to be close friends and out of those four I have one friend that I consider to be my best friend. We like to try to get our group together as much as possible to do things on the weekends like going to the movies. In the summer before my eleventh grade year, my best friend organized a large group to go to the movies to see a new superhero movie. I was fine at first but the closer that it got to the movie date the more and more nervous I got about it. A few days before the movie I told my best friend that I could not go because my father grounded me. It was not true, I just made myself so sick worrying about it that I decided not to go. My father was very upset with me for this. He told me that my anxiety is not real, that I am just shy and I need to get over. I regret my decision this I missed out on having fun with my friends because I was nervous about how many people I would be around and because it ended with my getting yelled at for something I cannot