We call people “bad” because they do not do what we want them to do. We judge them for being themselves, for fulfilling their wishes. We withdraw love from them when they do what they feel is best for them, not what we want them to do (p. 238). After my mother passed away, I experienced different types of emotions. One of them was anger. I was angry with myself, but I was also angry with God. How could He let her die? I stopped attending church. I stopped praying. I just wanted to be alone and stop believing that there is a God. I withdrew myself from anything that would remind me of God or believing in anything from God. I told myself, if there is a God, then He clearly does not care about me, let …show more content…
We use to always joke about our wedding day and raising our children together. Well, I am still single, so I do not believe that is possible anymore. She called me a few days ago and said, “You need to get married by the end of this year”. I laughed but she was actually serious. There is a guy I have been telling her about. Well, he is a good friend of mine. We have been friends for three years now, and I may be in love with him. Unfortunately, way before he met me, he believed God spoke to him concerning who his wife is. He admitted to me last month that he has feelings for me, but also believes this other woman is his future wife. I respect his belief and feelings, but I told my best friend everything. Tasha, my best friend, believes that if I go into prayer about him, God would give him to me as my husband. As great as that would be to be with him, including ‘changing God’s mind’, I am not sure how comfortable I am with that. I want him to make the decision to want to be with me and certain this is what he and God wants. I am troubled with the idea because what if this is what God wants me to do? It has been years since he has been waiting on this woman, but nothing has happened. They do not even