The last two stanzas in the poem indicate this. In the last stanza the speaker says, “…lungful of air contracting like a body caught in climax. Graceless, before the ballooning rush of air or sound. The battering release.” As I read this I immediately imagined a deflating balloon. She even uses the phrase “ballooning rush” to depict this imagery. The word “deflate” has a negative connotation. It means that something, or someone, is losing something and destroying its form. That can be in the case of gas, or air as she uses it, or in a human being. I believe the speaker is deflating. She is losing hope, confidence, and seems as if she is not as important to the spouse overseas as she once was. That being said, it seems as though she gives up in the last line. She uses the term “The battering release” as if she is finally able to breathe. If that is the case, the only way she feels she could breathe is to cut ties with her husband. That final line is almost a way to say it is the last time she will speak to the