The pride you get knowing you are serving your country and that you are sacrificing yourself for the greater good. But is it worth it? Is putting yourself through hell just to protect millions worth it? “War is hell, but that's not the half of it, because war is also mystery and terror and adventure and courage and discovery and holiness and pity and despair and longing and love. War is nasty; war is fun. War is thrilling; war is drudgery. War makes you a man; war makes you dead.” (The Things They Carried, O’Brian) This quote gives a good understanding of just how a soldier sees war. They see it as adventurous, prideful, and courageous, their actions are courageous but it's nasty and terrorizing the fear, the gut-wrenching fear one is indulging