As Alex traverses the forest after the Zap, she gets very nervous that the Zap might have caused her to changed and is very cautious around people. Alex goes on to say "I'll be the monster, If I use the gun, I won't be taking it out. I'll be killing me"(85). Alex is so scared that she will hurt people who she is looking out for that she fears turning on them due to her tumor. She decides that if it comes down to it, she will take herself put to allow Ellie to survive. Later, she scouting out the area when she sees two kids doing cannibalistic acts. She freaks out, thinking that there is a possibility of her becoming like the