Knapp makes her problem drinking evident to the reader, and as …show more content…
Telling the truth of self is always challenging, if not impossible, but for the former alcoholic there are matchless challenges. Whole nights and chunks of time are blurred or even vanished. One of the few places where the subject and the writer converge as one is in those vanished nights. Caroline is corporeally present, but neither the writer at the desk or the subject have any idea of what events transpired, “I totally blacked out; it’s one of the few nights from which I remember literally nothing, not even five minutes.” Like the truth of addiction is told in the vast distance between the writer and her subject, these convergences showcase the power of alcoholism. Unlike delving into one’s psyche or understanding motivations through hindsight, these vanished memories cannot be