As my fire team came back from recovering a detainee from the outskirts of camp Ramadi, we heard the marine squad behind us was hit with an IED. We were shaken by the news because two hours ago we passed the same road filled with garbage and old brunt vehicles. One of my friends had to make his gun safe to enter the dining hall, thus putting his gun in the gun cleaner made by a metal barrel filled with tires and sand bags around. I was joking around with others than I heard a bang. Loud noises are almost heard all the times therefore it did not come to my mind what if my friend missed or the bullet ricochet inside the barrel and went array. Then I felt a warm sensation on my hand, I did not feel pain nor even felt the bullet pass my left index finger. I lost the joint that moves the finger close to the palm when made into a fist and nerves on three fingers. After 2 months in the hospital and rehabilitation, I was welcomed back to military without any regards to my hand loss of movement. It’s been almost three years since I left the military and became a scholarly person. Most ex-military frown on the idea of becoming non-bias to a multitude of cultures that disapprove on the U.S militarization ideology of the world. I don’t think of myself disabled but the rest of the U.S do. There is a large difference between civilian society norms to military cultural norms. Too many times I have been placed on a stigmata acquisition that comes from being in the military, however the military don’t care of the wounds or mental stress suffered and would call on me when the time come. There are many groups that I myself can speak about like the CCVA, IAVA and LGBTVA that have helped combat veterans’ cope with the transition between military ideologies implanted in our souls to a civilian mentality. I have been in many studies and groups that want to educate people on military transition hurdlers that we face every day. Long before I joined the military I was a Department of transportation welder, a foreman that built 5 buildings from the ground up. I have my name in plaques in each building entrance and if the skeletal beams are exposed my trade mark signatures used to represent each weld I did would still be seen. My first encounter of my physical disability was when I tried to get a job as a welder in a company in Brooklyn. This company main purpose is to build the structural skeleton of the buildings. As any military personal looking for work the first things you hand in is the resume and DD214 (detail information of what I have done, where I been and how long I was in). I long had forgotten my wounds. I can shot with both hands, when I was in peak of my physical strength neither earth or weather would discourage my commitment of doing my mission and duty, however I found out that the civilian work force would look for anything to get disapproved from a job. As a welder I need steady hands and need to pick up heavy things while hundreds of feet above the ground. As an honest person I told them of my left hand loss of movement and explained to them that it did not compromise any of my duty as a welder, however they saw it as a different way. I understood that sometimes I needed my left hand to weld in awkward positions while being hanged by ropes, but I was stunned to know that I was on the call back list. So many years I worked in that trade and my resume was at most, outstanding. This is when the reading of Gail landsman’s came to mind; most of my co-workers in the past had very severe vertigo and would not complete jobs that needed to be hanged on the side of the building. Are mental disabilities like claustrophobic and vertigo allowed in that work force but not a simple loss of joint movement? Were the stigmata of being in the military turned into the burden to work among civilian personal? I continued to look for work and found myself trying to join the NYPD. I even got an 89 on the exam. The NYPD did