He replied, ‘If I had not done it somebody else would.” (Priscilla Grinder, Source D) Lewis was so afraid that someone else would have killed him if he hadn't done it himself. He was also scared of a war with England and having his valuable papers fall into British hand which would probably give them an advantage because they would know about the Louisiana Territory. Also before Lewis died he had a marriage proposal rejected which then caused him to start drinking heavily. He was drunk and could have been aiming for his heart but missed and went for his head. Later on he got malaria which causes mental confusion and lead to him attempting to kill himself. “Learning from the Crew that he had made two attempts to kill himself, in one of which he had nearly succeeded, resolved at once to take possession of him and his papers, and detain them there until he recovered.” (Gilbert Russell, Source