He wants to be understood and he wants to understand. When talking to the grandmother about Jesus the Misfit says that he used to be a gospel singer. He later goes on to say, " 'I wisht I had of been there,' he said, hitting the ground with his fist. 'It ain't right I wasn't there because if I had of been there I would of known. Listen lady,' he said in a high voice, 'if I had of been there I would of known and I wouldn't be like I am now.' " This indicates that he tried to believe but he couldn't really believe that Jesus was God's son. If he had been there then it would be clear and he could fully