After days of no sleep, you don’t even try to close your eyes anymore. You don’t even care or put in the effort. I am not afraid of being alone, or the feelings of darkness and emptiness. I am terrified of the fact that I lost myself. Nobody knows the real me. Nobody knows how many times I sat alone and cried, how many times I have lost hope, and how many times I have been let down. Nobody knows that every day I am holding back tears. Or even that I feel like at and second I am going to snap, and everything is just going to close in on me. Nobody understands the thoughts that spiral through my head when I am sad. Nobody knows how horrible they are and how they make me feel. So next time, people need to think twice when they are calling me a “drama queen,” or “overly- dramatic.” And just incase you are wondering, NO, I am not trying to be mean and I am not trying to snap at you. I am sorry that I am very moody and my emotions take hold of my brain. Whenever someone asks what’s wrong, I say that I am tired. So don’t get mad and say that I am lying, because I am being completely truthful. I am tired of trying, tired of hoping, tired of coping, tired of existing, tired of breathing, and tired of