This fear stayed for the first couple performances, especially when the strong women song was sung, as I was worried I may confuse the tunes. I could feel my face starting to grow hot and my stomach was starting to feel upset, I was worried I may get sick before I even opened my mouth to sing. After what seemed like a long time, when we went up to stand in front of our class my nerves continued to grow all the worst case scenarios were running through my head as I waited for us to begin our song. After Rashawn explained our song and the meaning behind it I was at my stress peak. I was at the most anxious I could be, which I found dissipated as I began to sing. Though I was still nervous and hung on to the mistakes I may have made, the release of tension due to the song and singing was almost immediate. As I continued to sing I started to feel more anxious and happier, I was even able to laugh at my own hesitance and mistakes. Though I felt my anxiety had dissipated, on reflecting I know I was still tense as I do not remember looking at any of the audience members and trying to look past the bleachers, indicating that my nerves were still present. It was an interesting experience, but I noticed I was more anxious for this performance than others, which could be due to my lack of familiarity with my classmates.
Overall, I am happy