My brother dropped out May of his senior year and began to work. At the beginning of my eighth grade year, …show more content…
Due to this problem, my eighth grade year was an inferno. I was under constant anxiety. My brother would sell our belongings to pay off his drug debts, but they were not enough. People would knock on our door perpetually trying to get their money. I tried my hardest to hide my prized possessions, but they were almost all taken. I did not want my brother to be addicted to such a horrible vice and it tortured me. I wanted to somehow make him stop; express to him that this was hurting not just him, but me as well. On top of all this, I had deteriorated self image. I was awkward, short, overweight, and extremely shy. During this time, I even blamed myself for everything that happened and was happening at home. I thought of suicide continually. When I thought of the future, I portended no positive outcome for myself. I am not that disturbed, anguished, and pessimistic person anymore. I have metamorphosed so much throughout three short years. I gained self esteem, love for myself, perspective and realized nothing that was happening to me was my fault; I did not cause any of that to happen. I obtained wonderful friends and left