You must have noticed the grave look on my face because you consequently took my hand and assured, “I’m not dying, Emanuel; don’t worry. I just meant that I applied to UCLA and I invoke divine intervention to convince the administration to accept me.” “Oh.” I gave a sigh relief. “UCLA? Is that not a difficult school to be accepted into?” “Yes, that is why I am … terrified.” “Terrified?” I inquired. You seemed unsure of how you articulated your feelings. “Well, I guess I am more apprehensive. If I do not get accepted … well I guess it won’t be that much of a loss.” “Don’t doubt yourself. It is an incredible school; it would be an honor to walk through those corridors,” I asserted. You stared at me and studied my countenance with precision. “It would, wouldn’t it?" …show more content…
You said you wish you fell in love. Well, in retrospect, I may have appeared to be captivating in your eyes and I may have even instilled you with an urge to love. Thinking about the possibility that you could have had a little curiosity to love me makes me regret how cynical I was. I told you I thought love was Sisyphean, a tedious cycle of breaking up and making up. I may have ruined your perception of love in that moment. That is why you wished you were in love. My apology transcends this material dimension and extends to your distant repose. I am so sorry,