If this war hadn’t happened, I would be in college. I wouldn’t had to of seen all these horrible things that people do to each other. I killed many people, but I don’t feel bad. I did what I was told. I saw awful things. I don’t have a answer for why I feel older, but normal people my age normally done see this type of stuff. My commanding officer Ryan Murphy thanks for a job well don't, but I still feel like we didn’t win the war. We lost so many men. I don’t feel lucky though because I suffered during the whole war I had bad food, no water, I was dirty all the time and I never got enough sleep. I walk on C 17 cargo planes for home; first stop Hawaii, the Los Angeles than Boston. I can’t wait to see my family, I know that I should be thanked by people for going into the war, but rumor has it that most people hate us. I guess I should be happy to go home so I can take this uniform off. After I get home, I am planning on taking a shower, and eating real food. I liked looking at the moon in Vietnam because no matter where you are in the world the moons is always that size of your thumb. And spending time with my family. I said that I feel like we didn’t win the war because it Vietnam really going to change their way just for American? I don't think they will. I think we lose so many men for no reason, but I will always love this