I didn’t want to be here anymore. I hated it here, too. I once was like Billy. But they had manipulated me; their promise of a fantasy of a life of ease was broken repeatedly. Everything that made me was stolen and I had to save what I had left. At least up there on the battlefield created by societal expectation I could be someone. I didn’t want to do this anymore. The fantasy of a life I was promised was a ruse, a promise broken repeatedly while they manipulated the colour of my life. I was just a pawn and I hated how in search of my identity I had given up any integrity. Everything that made me who I was, and I had to save what I had left. At least up there every day wouldn’t be a question of survival. He was very lively. His eyes glowing with anticipation and hope for the future. He wouldn’t ever forget his past, a part of him forever buried deep in his heart, but it would stick with him and dictate his choice, hopefully for the best. For the first time since he could remember, he could recognise myself. The boy in the mirror was me. I nodded at him and whispered, “We are real